a (pregnant) girl's real best friend

i dont leave home with out them

original plan a

hello bloggernet-o-sphere. its been 5 weeks since ive writ. shameful really. well...where did we leave off? ah yes, the yo-yo-roller-coaster. well kb left sept 2 in the morn to head to seattle to check out the freight pilot job and got as far as salt lake city where & when he decided he didnt want to take the job, rented a car and came home. so here we are in cedar still. decided it was too stressful to move while preggo. (cuz, yeah, itll be so much easier with a newborn...) so we are staying here for the birth of charlie. and, im in school, which tried to kill me the first week. actually is still trying to kill me. but i dropped 3d design and lightened the stress load a little. classes include: painting 3, digital photography, american civilization (history of) & art seminar. plus still working in the gallery. we no longer love my neighbor, since he secured his wireless only a few days after my declaration. does he read sowut? so now we are loving ourselves. and i dont care if you come and steal our wireless from us.
in american civ the other day there was a girl sitting in front of me writing : i love life! i love life! over and over in her notebook. with big fat curly lettering. and hearts. i dont know if she was reminding herself, convincing herself, or she thought it was going to be on the test ...
today i left therapy early because i told my therapist i just didnt want to be there. he was ok with that. it was kind of weird tho. but some days i just dont feel like i have anything to talk about. todays topic was: im (always) tired and i dont have enough time to do the things i need to do. can i go now?
something to smile about: mini pumpkins. now, go, get a couple, and smile.

love my neighbor

omygodx1000. my downstairs neighbor got internet and guess who is tapping into his wireless... i almost want to go give him some money. or cookies. i am actually blogging from home. school starts tomorrow and after all the plan a, b and cs. i decided to go ahead and start, and will drop/withdraw if we decide to move. i just felt there is too much uncertainty with this job in pdx (or seattle)(we still dont even know where the damn job is) to not have a back up plan. so it may cost me more money than i want to imagine, but it may be worth it if everything falls thru... plus keeping busy with school will keep me from dwelling too much on these minor details like my future and the future of my future child. for now, its time to go make some cookies...

3:30 is the new 6:30

a.m. that is. every fucking night (morning?). i cant seem to sleep any more. and believe me it is taking its toll on my emotional stability and physical well being. grrr. now the yo-yo is spinning between seattle and portland. i can live with either one. i just wouldnt mind knowing which. might help with the 3:30 wake up calls. hope you are sleeping well and sound and dreaming lovely dreams.

100

woohoo. just hit 100 views. only 93 of them were me checking to see how many views ive had. so i finally opened an etsy site/store! jeezus christ it was alot of work. i probably spent at leat 10 hours from start to finish, maybe more with photos, uploading, reloading, resizing, figuring out the stupid etsy site, writing a description. im not sure if it was worth the trouble. well i just tried to link from here and i cant figure it out. oh fer fucks sake. how did i make the deans list? the etsy store name is jcdoe if you want to check me out. good luck. buy something. this kid is kicking like a maniac. 20 1/2 weeks. halfway there. i actually have a full weekend this weekend. ive worked the past three saturdays in a row. tonight im going to attempt making pork chops. i dont think ive ever done that before. the husband is the designated meat cooker. but he is in tucson and baby needs some protein. also on deck: a boy and his dog (fuck this link bullshit). a movie i know nothing about other than it stars a 1975 don johnson. also have flashdance. and farmers market tomorrow. hope yours is a safe and happy one.

nowewa

perhaps the new name of blogs to come? (north west washington)
husband may have job in seattle. tho yesterday he may have had a job in spokane, but that fell thru. and then this morning it was boise. and now its seattle. with another job offer in st. louis or denver. so im not getting excited until he is there (wherever there is) with paycheck and looking for an apartment for us. at least there are job offers. for pilots these days, they are hard to come by. and jeezus. seattle. i love seattle. i cant imagine living back in civilization again. restaurants, museums, galleries, book stores...you know, stuff. and the green trees and fresh fish and cloudy days.

and

i hate the phrase "strappy heels"